Hondras’s Blog

Wow after all these hookups and online sex and one night stands I have had lately, I actually have a real date tonight. It wasn’t really planned, we met months ago and kept texting each other and finally said ok lets meet and somehow I offered to make dinner and now he’s coming over and for some reason I’m a little nervous. I think after all this random sex I’m in the mood for a little romance. And I’m not much of a cook but I called my mother (what’s a gay boy to do?) and she gave me some foolproof recipes.

Well if the food sucks we can just drink and fuck all night. I hope he doesn’t expect too much (except) my hot ass. I mean it’s a date and all but I don’t plan on playing hard to get. I mean does anybody do that anymore? It seems all gay men are just big horned up whores. Well I’m ready and the food is cooking and the table is ready and the wine is opened and my cock is hard and there are condoms by the bed (I’m dessert btw) so think I’m ready for my first real date in a long time if not my first one ever.

Oh shit there he is! Wish me luck and let’s hope he isn’t an asshole.

I don’t know why but I haven’t been able to get laid recently. Just when I was becoming comfortable with my newfound whoreness I find myself in a dry spell. It’s kind of frustrating because I just spent the holidays with my family and of course I’m from a small town so I haven’t had any action lately. I wish we were filming right now so at least I would be getting fucked on camera.

But every guy I met this week either blew me off or flaked out on me or was an asshole. I guess we all have our dry spells even a young porn boy. But I’m tired of masturbating. I’ve just been whacking off all the time, because I’m so horny. My arm is really staring to hurt (Lol) Plus it’s so cold out and I don’t feel like going out much. I don’t like the internet thing so I won’t get any action that way. And since I do porn I’m not always into watching it. Oh well I guess it’s time to just curl up with a good book (yes I read sometimes, not as dumb as I look) although I would rather curl up with a hot stud.

I think I’m finally getting less shy and less inhibited about myself both socially and sexually, especially sexually. I guess the more of a whore I become the less shy I am. I think I’ll always be a little reserved but between doing porn and being done by lots of guys (I’ve been a bad boy lately, OMG I’m turning into Ricky).

I’m finally coming and by coming I mean cumming out of my shy boy shell. Being a voracious bottom who loves to get fucked and having lots of hot studs responding to that, has give me so much more confidence. Being hit on and fucked by guys, is totally making me rise like a peacock.

I think that’s starting to show in my work on camera too. I’ll always be the quiet one but you’re going to see this boy be a little less sweet and a little more tart. I feel more in control and more sexual and of course, I love getting fucked any which way I can. I never seem to be satisfied; I always want to get fucked again and again and again. Well, I must admit it’s really fun cumming out of my shell.

As a bottom boy who loves to get fucked I love the perfect cock. One that’s not only big, but is hung/curved just right; so when I get fucked it fills my needy-boy-pussy completely. I met a guy recently who had a really big penis but it was shaped really weirdly. It had a strange curve to it and it kind of went off too far in one angle.

So I meet this guy and we go to his place and I’m all hot and heavy and we get naked and I suck his cock which is when I notice its odd shape. But when he tried to fuck me it just wouldn’t fit in. We kept trying and trying and we are making out and it’s all hot and heavy again and he keeps trying to stick his oddly shaped dick in me and it just wouldn’t go in.

So after like ten tries, we both just cracked up laughing because it was just so ridiculously funny. All that working up to fucking and we were like two pieces of a puzzle that no matter how hard you tried just wouldn’t fit together and it was because he just the wrong shaped dick. So we jacked off and that was that. I’m going to pay attention, in the future, to not just size but shape and proportion as well.

One size (or size queen) doesn’t fit all.

I want to go to a sex party, I’ve never been to one and now I’m very curious. I’m still young and a little naive even though I work in Porn. Interesting huh? But I have these fantasies of going to a sex party and sucking lots and lots of big manly cocks. I would love to get on my knees and have guys come up to me one at a time and then I go down on their cocks and swallow their manly loads. Then I want to make out with a really hot guy while another guy takes his cock and fucks me from behind while all the other guys watch me.

Then I want to get fucked by two guys at the same time. I just saw that in a porn film and the idea of two cocks penetrating my hole at once is really really hot. I want to feel both of them rubbing up against each other while they pump my hole.

The problem is that I’m a little scared to act out on these fantasies. I have no trouble having sex on camera but the idea of having sex in front of all those people terrifies me. I know it doesn’t make any sense but it does when you realize just how shy I really am in front of people. And yes I’m a total sex crazed boy whore.

That’s why doing porn on camera works for me because I get to be a whore but in an intimate setting. The camera doesn’t intimidate me. But people especially hot guys do. Well hopefully I will get the nerve up to go to a sex party.

I’m so excited about my next movie scene in Keith’s next film. I have a bigger part this time and I get a guy with a bigger dick. He’s so hot and I have seen his cock before, so I can’t wait to have it fucking me in our big scene. I’m such a size queen but I have learned that I need a really big, thick cock in me to satisfy. It’s going to be a prison scenario and I’ll be tied up in a dark cell and he’s going to totally abuse me and fuck me, while I’m chained to the wall. I’ll be wearing a harness and nothing else.

I have always had sexual fantasies like that, about being chained to a wall while some big muscle guy makes me do his bidding. I can’t wait to be on me knees sucking his huge manly cock then I’ll get on all fours and he’ll fuck the shit out of me while he slaps me around. Then all these other guys will come into the cell and it is going to be one giant gang bang. I’m such an insatiable bottom that I’ll be so ecstatic to have all those big cocks fucking my sweet boy pussy. I can’t wait to start filming this scene.

Maybe I’m too nice but seem to attract assholes, or maybe it’s just my hot asshole that attracts them. Or maybe I’m attracted to assholes, I’m not sure but I do meet a lot of jerks and I’m getting tired of it. They’re all so charming and great in bed and they fuck me silly and they are all romantic and they say they are into me and then I never hear from them again.

And I fall for the same type of guy again and again and again so I’m a sucker for charming assholes who charm their way into my asshole. But I must say the sex is always great, so it’s fun while it lasts but I guess this young hot porn boy is still a little naive when it comes to the ways of gay men. But they do love to fuck me silly, so at least I have that.

I love having sex in the shower.

I think it’s really, steamy when you spend the night with some sexy stud and he’s fucked me all night, then the next morning we get in the shower together. I love being wet together then lathering soap all over each other. I also love getting on my knees and sucking his big manly cock while the water is pouring down all over me. I find that to be so sexually arousing.

Then what really gets me off is when I turn around and he presses me up against the showers tiled walls, then gets my hole all soapy and then he gets his cock lathered – then he rams his cock up my tight boy hole and fucks me really hard.

My whole body is pressed up against the wall and he’s way up inside me and the water is cascading down all over our hot bodies while we fuck. Eyes closed and submissive. And I love the sound of the water pounding down while he’s pounding my ass. Man oh man that gets me so hot and bothered. Then we rinse each other off and kiss tenderly and the best part is that we’re all nice and clean.

I love to suck dick and I love them big hung and hard. But I’m not sure if I prefer a cut or uncut dick. There’s something manly and sexy about an uncut dick. On the other hand, it’s so much easier and nicer to suck a cut dick. But when it comes to being fucked I have no problem with an uncut cock. It feels a little better than the cut ones but it also is just more sexy to me .

But when it comes to sucking dick I love wrapping my mouth around a cut cock and letting it slide up and down my throat. I love the smoothness of a cut dick and I love to lick my tongue over its slick shaft. So I’m not that picky, overall, since I love cock no matter what. And I’m not going to kick a guy out if he has an uncut dick. But when it comes to being the eager cocksucker that I am, I prefer and nice big juicy hung cut dick.

I have to go find some more Latin men.

I tried meeting people online, thinking it would be a great way to meet guys, since I’m still somewhat on the shy side. But everybody is a total flake. You chat with one of them, then you arrange to meet, you give them your address, they even say they’re on their way and they never show up. I hate that. It really pisses me off because if they’re not going to make it or change their mind, they should at least call.

So I wait around with a hard dick and an eager ass, all horned up and then am basically blue balled. This has happened to me so many times and I think I’ll just give up. I’m a cute young boy so I deserve to be treated better. It’s such a waste of time and sexual energy. I should just save myself for my next big sex scene in a film that’s coming up. Will update on how that goes.